This has been a tough time for me and I know it is tough for everyone. I’m grateful for so many things, home, family, food, warmth, working from home, the birds singing. I’m sad about all the separation. I miss my daughter, son in law and their children although we do talk to them often. They live in Minneapolis and that is probably the worst area to live in. Still in Minnesota, it isn’t so bad. Our numbers remain very low. I miss church although I am watching it. I miss eating out and I don’t even eat out that often. I bought show tickets this spring for the first time in a long time and won’t be seeing those shows. I am sad for my younger daughter who lives in North Dakota, she is trying to look forward to her wedding at the end of May and dreading any news of further extensions of the stay at home orders. Her venue is hopeful still and has many plans for keeping people safe including a backup date if we need to change it. Still this should be such a happy time and it is instead filled with stress for her and for us.
I thought I was so grounded in my faith that this situation shouldn’t impact me so much. I should be peaceful, faithful, obedient. Truly though I have so many moments of anger and frustration. I am worried about the situation around the world and so I gave money to Catholic Relief Services. I am worried about my church. Financially, how can it be solvent? Donations down $60,000. How can our church make the mortgage and pay the staff? So, I gave more money to my church. What is happening out there while we are all so preoccupied with ourselves? I feel like I should listen to the news but it is so depressing that I can’t listen to the news. All I can do is stay in place, work, and enjoy the people in my small circle; my husband, my sons, my daughter in law, and my two grandsons. Six people. My life line. I make phone calls. I use Zoom to connect with my community. I watch sitcoms looking for light-hearted relief. I pray, I work, and I wait. Please God, help us find a cure, a vaccine, a test to show those of us who have already had this disease, help us to move forward and see each other again.
So to the government, from the bottom of my heart, I know that you mean well. You have incomplete data though. You have 300 million healthy people locked up just in case. I agree with sheltering those who may be vulnerable but not in isolating them from their families and friends. Trust us to wash our hands and take care not to spread germs. We are a smart group of people. We can take care of each other and will take care of each other. No more extensions. The curve has been flattened. The hospitals have been built. The equipment is coming in. We are as ready as we are going to be. Peace.